Relationship

I think I will put aside my relationship first since she said she is more comfortable as friends.  It is hard for me to keep in contact and hence I have decided to cut her off from my life. I know I still love her and miss her and hopefully time will wash away everything that I have for her. Sending her flowers to her office personally is just a fantasy. Taking her to a scrumptious restaurant with musics playing in the background is just an imagination. Going out during Valentines day is just a thought. Asking the uncle musician near my place to sing a song for her for the night is just a dream. Making a birthday video with her friends and family inside, posting on her birthday on Facebook is just an idea that would never come true. The dolphin that I bought last year will ended up somewhere else instead, since she loves dolphin so much. Growing together as a couple and going through the ups and downs of life won't be happening for us. How I wish everything will come together but reality hurts. I love when I love and I know it won't be fair to my future spouse if I don't cut this off now. The past is behind now, it is time to move on, Shawn. Now that I have to focus on building up myself, my business, and my investment. For the past one year plus while I was waiting for her, I was slowly succumbing to the daily ordinary work life that is very routine. Something need to be changed that I know.